Week 15

 ·  Size of baby: Our growing baby now measures about 4 inches long, crown to rump, and weighs in at about 2 1/2 ounces (about the size of an apple).

·  Weight gain: It would probably be helpful if I owned a scale…

·  Symptoms experienced: Rollercoaster of ups and downs with regards to how I feel about my numbers. Hugh numbers are emotionally dark days. Baby bumps me all the time now. LOVE. Still plagued by the Hem-monsters. Buh.

·  How I feel: Getting more energy each day and like that I feel like I can accomplish things in a day. Ecstatic about this one bumping me every so often.

·  What I've been craving: Delicious things. And Popeyes Cajun fries and red beans and rice. Both no nos.

·  What I miss: Food. This seems to be a recurring thing. ..

·  Best moment: Baths. Alllll the time.  

·  Items purchased: Still nada:( so many cute things to buy!! My nanny mom of my favorite 2 year old told me to go shopping in their house when we get closer because they don’t want more than the 2 kids they have (6m and 2.5) and want to give all their stuff to us rather than goodwill. Yay! That’s play mats, exersaucers, toys, boy clothes, etc! and they buy the GOOD stuff! 

My bump feels gargantuan for it only being 15 weeks. But I love it! 

More on the rest of life later. Tomorrow is my BFs wedding and I'm stoked! 

Bike Riding And In-Laws

What a weekend! We had a GREAT weekend… it started out with bike riding and lunch by the beach and ended with a spontaneous trip to visit family! We woke up Saturday morning after sleeping in to our hearts content and then got dressed, put my bike in the car, and drove over the bridge to the best beach in town. My bike needed a tune up so we took it to the store I bought it from and asked if we could drop it off after riding around, then rented a bike for hubs and we were in business. We biked through the town and neighborhoods for a hour or so and then I was over this whole “riding for fun” thing and we dropped off both bikes and walked to a little outdoor seating café and split an egg scramble for brunch. Delicious! The weather was even cooperative and it was warm and sunny all day. We have finally left june/july gloom behind. After our most glorious expedition into the outside world we returned home and called his parents to chat about nothing. They informed us they were at a party only an hour and a half from us (instead of the usual 4 hours) and that we should come up. After regretfully denying we hung up and then thought about and talked through actually going, sour of the moment. The pros outweighed the cons and after dinner we packed an over night bag and drove up to stay with them for the night in their hotel. After seeing them I feel so blessed to have amazing inlaws that I love to spend time with. We loved seeing them and staying up half the night watching Bridesmaids. Then spending all Sunday with them going shopping and eating lunch. I found a dress and shoes for my friend wedding on Saturday in about 20 minutes while shopping and got both for 16$. I love sales! The hardest part of the weekend was keeping our secret. “What.. you mean you didn’t tell them!?” Yup, mum’s still the word. A. It was Lisa’s due date, and B. we have it all planned out for the 31^st. I wore a pleated poofy dress that hid the bump and life was good. Leaving was sad. I wanted to stay and secretly move in with them, but their house is full and we had church class to make it back for. I took a much needed relaxing bath Sunday night, and passed out at 10. I woke up today and hit the mall to buy my friend’s wedding present, got some bath balls from LUSH (hiiiiighly recommend!!!) and 3 maternity tops! Agh. Its starting again. I just put a whole load in the washer so I can wear them.

In other news, my sister-in-laws due date was Saturday and this baby is currently still cooking. And she thought he’d be on time. Ahahhahaa.

Long Over Due Week 14

 Now that I am almost week 15, I decided it is about time to update for this week.

·  Size of baby: From head to bottom, s/he measures 3 1/2 inches — about the size of a lemon — and weighs 1 1/2 ounces  with a heartrate of 156.

·  Weight gain: It would probably be helpful if I owned a scale…

·  Symptoms experienced: Really really forgetful. I have lost my hairbrush and left my keys in the door almost every day. My stomach also hurts occasionally and I think because my uterus is stretching and growing.

·  How I feel: Ridiculously tired currently..  but starting to get more and more excited

·  What I've been craving: I had a dream my sister in law (due tomorrow) was showing me she was 10 cm dilated by comparing it to and holding up a delicious fat chocolate glazed donut. Which I cannot eat. Heartless.

·  What I miss: being at family functions and being able to enjoy everything that is edible. My family should be Italian or something. Our get togethers revolve around food. So I get to stare at cake, and ice cream, and mac and cheese, and biscuits with honey and not eat any.

·  Best moment: Our Doppler arrived from www.tinyheartbeats.org and we got to hear Gummybear for the first time ever. It was really special.

·  Items purchased: Nothing until we know a gender. I did see a mom with a Britax B-Ready and in my head thought… dang that is a good looking stroller. It looks really expensive though. And it was mine! 

I'm starting to get really tired of trying to keep this bump a secret! 

Both Last Year and Yesterday

“One strange thing about Being In A Crisis, especially being at the center of one, is how everything else keeps moving along. You don’t think it will. You don’t see how it can. It felt like every other part of the world should have reacted to what had happened in mine. The nurses should have paused, traffic in the streets should have pulled over, just to acknowledge that for some reason, my life had changed. We crashed. Then we went on too. That’s the other thing about A Crisis. When you’re outside of it, not touched by it, you say ‘Oh, my God, how do they stand it? Poor things, how could they live through that?’ When it’s around you, in you, you simply do it. Because there is no choice. Only a next step.”

This was a passage in the book I read yesterday and I instantly brought me back to standing at the hospital window right after delivering Max, watching all the people walking around, eating lunch, laughing and talking. Safe in their own worlds where tragedy hadn’t struck. I remember thinking “how can they just go on, the world ended. It’s different and they all have no idea. How is there still happiness in this world?”

Now I feel removed from it. I can’t believe that happened to me. It seems like years ago, and at the same time only days ago. 

Thankfully this little one seems to be growing on track and healthily. I am so thankful for that. I have no idea how I could handle a repeat. I don’t need two angel babies. We are 14w3 today and I cannot wait to go to our Aug 13^th appointment and see this little one again (hopefully she shows us instead of just listening). And my Doppler should come this week and I am excited to use it and hear gummybear’s thump thump thump of a hummingbird heartbeat. Fingers crossed!

Who Invited The Bear?

This weekend was not my greatest weekend ever. I was, unfortunately, hormonal and moody all weekend. Saturday morning hubby left bright and early to go paintballing with some work friends, and that left me at odds all day with no real plan. I ended up wandering around target and going dress shopping for a couple hours, but still had time to kill until my cousin’s bday party that night. He and his family are moving to Hawaii in 4 days and this was one of the last get togethers we would all have as a family. I called my aunt and asked if I could hitch a ride up with her to the party that way hubs could meet me there in his car and we could drive back together. The party was mostly fun. I had gotten a sandwich to eat because they were planning on ordering pizza (a no no) and wings and cake and ice cream (also no nos). I ate my sandwich while everyone else enjoyed the good things in life and what do you know...my #&%@ number was $%*&#@ high anyways! Ugh. That ruined my night. It meant I couldn’t have even a bite of the cake. That was homemade and I know from experience is delicious. I was on the verge of a the-straw-that-broke-the-camels-back-meltdown. We left early. I finally lost it when we get home in a spectacular woe-is-me meltdown while hubby tried to cheer me up. I cried it out and went to bed early. It was more that everyone else had no cares in the world and could eat seconds, and pizza AND ice cream and cake. And here I had to eat my own food and not snack o the chips and grapes and strawberries. It’s not as bad when it’s just my diet, but I haven’t been around other people eating all the things I can’t before in a large setting and with so many things. Thus ended Saturday. Sunday was mostly ok, I was still cranky from Saturday but we got up, went to church and stayed for the members meeting after with lunch. They hired a food truck to come and cater lunch and we split spinach and pork pierogies and they were delicious. The church meeting went over the expenses of the church, the plans for a new building, and what’s going on in all the ministries and was very informative. The meeting ended and we socialized and I signed up to help in the children’s ministry and we went home. Once home, the internet on my phone stopped working and, already not in the best mindset, I had a mini tantrum- and my saintly hubby who puts up with so much fixed it for me. I apologized for all past, present, and future snapping and he cuddled me and we talked for a bit. We called his mom from the chair because we both miss her and we wanted to catch up and see how her vegan diet affected her cholesterol etc. we spent a good 40 minutes on the phone with her talking about what’s going on at her house and what we are up to (minus the pregnancy because they don’t know yet). Once off the phone I was really comfortable sprawled on the chair getting my back rubbed so we stayed instead of going out like we had planned. Next thing either of us know is we are asleep and so we moved to our bed and took a 2 hour nap and I woke up in a better mood. As hubs said “I didn’t think a nap would have helped that much!... I mean… not that you were bad or anything…” nice save. I know I was a bear. I already feel terrible. The day ended with a PB&lite J (which jacked my number up anyway) and the movie Mirror Mirror. Please let this week be better.

One Side Down

Well, my mom knows. I sent the card and it got there on Monday. She has taken it surprisingly well... Congratulated us and asked about the due date. Then when I expressed my shock at her reaction, she told me to pick myself up off the floor. I told her all about having gestational diabetes, and she was amazed I had it, and really wished I had been warned it was a possibility because I had two babies within a year. I kind of wish I had been given a heads up on the possibility that way I could have been more careful in the beginning. Though I don’t think I would have waited longer. Happily, the diabetes counselor told me that having an A1C of 5.7 meant my average sugar levels were around 117 and that means I did no harm. Phew. So now my immediate family knows. I made my next two appointments yesterday, the 16 week check up and blood work on Aug 13^th, and then the anatomy scan on Aug 31^st! Hubby and I were talking about when we wanted to make that appointment and decided we wanted an afternoon appointment so he could take a half day, and we wanted it early in the week because if you get bad news on a Friday you have a weekend to panic before places with answers open again. I called the number and she told me during that week she had one afternoon appointment. Friday afternoon. I took it. Then called hubs to lament/get excited. I'm hoping the Dr. wants to take a peek at our 16 week appointment and ill ask her to look if so. Otherwise we have 35 days before we can pick a team. That weekend we find out we are going to visit his family and break all the news at once. Surprise! We’re pregnant! Surprise! It’s a GIRL?BOY?! I need fun gender reveals, the trick is I can’t do any of the food ones... A. because we did a blue cake with Max and it was really special and doing it again feels like I would be steamrolling over one of the only memories I have of him. And B. the in-laws and brother and sister-in-law that live there are vegan. 

And here is me at 13 weeks.  bumity bump bump.

Week 13

I decided to steal this from Ali, because it covers everything each weeks and its a nice all in one place stats update. (Thanks Ali!)

• Size of baby: The size of a Peach! Almost 3 inches long. with a heartrate of 153.
• Weight gain: -4 pounds from the first appointment at 8 weeks. -8 from prepregnancy. Thats what limited carbs does.
• Symptoms experienced: Crankiness, and the great and lovely just appeared hemorrhoids. faaaaantastic.
• How I feel: Like I am never going to catch a break. 
• What I've been craving: Things I am not allowed to eat. Like Oatmeal Butterscotch Walnut cookies.
• What I miss: Eating, being carefree. Sugar.
• Best moment: Our 12 week scan was last week and this one measured ahead and the feeling of instant relief when I saw the little heartbeat flicker. Plus his/her palate was checked and looks good and we have very low risk factors. Also, sharing our news with Hub's brother and sister-in-law (due in 2 weeks) over dinner and their faces were identically priceless!
• Items purchased: We manned up and bought a stroller. We just couldnt pass up the amazon deal of buying a Britax B-Ready and getting a free carseat. We figured this was a really good buy because we can buy a seat attachment later on and use it for 2 kids, and its a beautiful stroller and would have been too expensive otherwise. The stroller and carseat were $400 instead of $570! and its Britax! Yes I'm freaking out and it's insane that we bought this at 13 weeks. But we will use it for all our kids whenever we get one. And the free carseat deal ended Aug 1st.