Vitamins

I have chronic tiredness. I'm not sure if that is a real name but I definitely have it. Ever since I was little I have slept between 10-12 hours a night when given my own way, and if I could swing it… naps. Even then I would wake up feeling like someone woke me up after only 3 hours. I’d wake up groggy and not at all ready to carpe diam. When I was pregnant this got even more out of control, and I’d bank 14 hours if I could. Because I have been this way since I was little I thought that was just my normal sleep pattern. Well guess again me! After getting dinged for MTHFR- which inhibits B vitamin absorption (ie energy) I started looking into supplements. The doctor put me on extra folic acid because that doesn’t work right either, and I went to our neighborhood Sprouts health store and bought Vitamin B capsules. I started taking them last week and let me tell you. I feel A-mazing! I wake up in the morning ready to get up; I'm awake, and alert. I have energy throughout the day and have been only getting a more normal 8 hours a night. But even if I was still sleeping the same length I no longer feel that I have been dragged under a bus when I wake up. The changes are phenomenal. So this is what it feels like to be normal! If (when) I get pregnant again I hope the little bugger doesn’t suck my newfound energy right back out… even if... I’d take it! 10 more days. Dun dun dun.

*Edit 5/30. The little bugger does indeed suck all that new energy right on out. 

Pre-Appointment Jitters...!

Drs appointment tomorrow!!! I'm cautiously optimistic that we are finally getting somewhere!!   We sent her a heads up email telling her we wanted to talk about MTHFR options, our history, and preconception. She read through our records and already has extra testing set up for tomorrow.  So far so good:) my mom doesnt know we want to try again so soon... She keeps sliding '6 more months then try' into conversation. She means well, but doesn't want us to regret starting early and then having regrets. Though that doesn't change our plans. We could be trying for a baby in a week if this appointment works!!!!! Aaaahhhh

So Much!

I have been so busy the last couple weeks I haven’t had any time to update! My mom has been in town and that has been wonderful. Though it does mean waking up before my normal wake up time. Our days have been filled with errands and trips and shopping and by the end of the day (after dinner with my grandpa) I am exhausted. In a good way. Hubs and I also recently took a (to short) four day trip to Hawaii with his company as a reward for a good 2011 year. There is nothing like waking up in a gorgeous hotel room that faces the ocean and having a full day to relax and adventure. Not to mention the trip was free :) One of the days we went horseback riding, and ATVing and I think it was my favorite day. I kept thinking that I wouldn’t have been on this trip if our baby was still here. I would be 38 weeks pregnant unable to fly. No Hawaii, no Horseback, ATVing, or open bar. On the other hand, I got all that, but no baby. And to put the cherry on those cheerful thoughts my period-no-baby-reminder started the last day of the trip. Hubby and I are toying with the idea of a baby after this period ends... not trying, but not preventing. First we have to meet with a new doctor May 1, and I am hoping he is one that will be willing to treat MTHFR as a something. Not like the counselor we saw who said it was no big deal. Um... excuse me but google-doctor doesn’t agree. I didn’t do anything beyond the normal the first time and look what happened. I started retaking my prenatals again after boycotting them the last couple months to start building up my vitamin levels... just in case.

Genetics And My Mother

Today is the day. Twice. We FINALLY got our appointment with the geneticist and my mother flies in in an hour. After a week and a half of calling and trying to get an appointment we have one. Today at 3:30 we get answers. How is MTHFR going to effect me? What am I going to have to do differently? More importantly what does it mean about trying again and having a healthy baby?! How long do we need to be in the new regimen before its effective and safe? Until then what about birth control...from what I have read I can't take the pill anymore because of clotting, so what do we do? So many questions!!   The other main thing today is my mom. She hasn't been out here in 2 years. Things are finally getting back to normal between us. What will the next 3 weeks bring? I am excited to pick her up and show her my apartment. She hasn't ever seen it so this will be fun. Plus delicious Mexican food for lunch before my appointment. :)

update: appt was a bust. not only did we have to fill out the dreaded paperwork... "number of pregnancies: 1, live children:0" the counselor was a complete waste of time. She said based on our family history it doesn't look genetic and she disregarded the MTHFR by saying the more digging you do the more you will find. I checked out at that point.  I got home and called the hospital to set up a 'pre-conception' appt with a new OB May 1st.

What More Can Happen!?

Ugh, we just got some results back from the extra blood testing and found I have two mutations on one of my chromosomes (MTHFR).. Something to do with blood clotting and not processing folic acid. I'm waiting for the Doctor to call me back and tell me exactly what that means and how that might affect us having another baby. Google-doctor has NOT been helpful to my peace of mind. Its linked to recurrent miscarriage and what looks to my untrained eye what happened to Max. .. on top of banding. seriously how much more can I take? I mean... really?! ugh. This just doesn't seem to be meant to be. Why us? we would be great parents and we want it really badly. Teenagers get babies, drug addicts get babies, SNOOKI gets a baby!! Why not us!?