After reading my friend Bekah’s post on her trip to the doctor…
it made me think. Is Tricare why I don’t care who my Dr is? I see all these
posts and comments about women who refuse to have someone else deliver their
child or see them in an appointment. Is that because they grew up with ONE
family practitioner they saw all the time? And expect the same with an OB? I have
never in my life seen a doctor more than once until pregnancy. Each time I ever
went in for anything from sniffles to a sprained ankle it was a new doctor and
a new face (sometimes even a new state). Therefore… I don’t really care who my
OB is. Do I care that she is competent. Yes. Do I care that she has read my
file? Yes. Would I be heartbroken if they switched me? No. When I picture
delivery at the hospital I don’t even picture her there and it doesn’t bother
me. I figure all the doctors know what they are doing and I’m not attached to
anyone in particular. I'm attached to competence. With Max I didn’t know any of
the doctors or nurses when we delivered and I really didn’t care. I felt like I
would never see them again after and so it really didn’t matter who they were
as long as they were nice. Even my Perinatal OB now won’t see me after I deliver
except for the 6 week check up and I’ll have to find a pediatrician. I don’t want
to be attached. And I really don’t care. It doesn’t bother me that they all are
strangers and want to look at my lady business. They could hold a Dr Conga line
past the business end of the birth and I wouldn’t care as long as someone was
making sure things were going right. Maybe I just don’t get attached to people?
Maybe I have almost zero modesty…who knows. But I don’t bond easily and
especially with doctors. Living life as a military kid sure does a number on
you.
In other random rambling pregnancy thought. My little man is
a trooper. He is wiggly and wonderful:) I see tiny babies everywhere and I cannot
wait for one to be mine. Specifically him. My little guy. 4 more months! Eeee! I
want to buy everything in sight for him and have it but hubs is the voice of
reason and put an ‘after the nursery is done’ ban on more purchases. Painting
will be done the first week in Oct by him and his parents, while I supervise
from afar. Then I just have to paint all the mural-ing and buy and set up the
carpet and then move all the furniture in and its ready for its occupant. THEN I
can go controlled crazy on boy clothes. Though hubs has a point. People want to
buy you baby clothes. And they grow fast so they might not wear everything. Fiiiiiiiine.
I would also like to fast forward to Oct 29th.
That is one day past when we lost Max. Once we reach it I won’t be as paranoid.
Plus my Dr. has put in an order for us to have another detailed ultrasound at
28 weeks and I can’t wait to see him again! I'm hoping they’ll let my mom come
to the appointment too so she can see her (second) grandson.
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