Labor Day Weekend p3, Etc... Etc

I guess I should finish up writing about labor day weekend… seeing as it was over a week ago.. After we told the fam and they all flipped out in a good way I felt better about the weekend and not having to be as careful hiding my stomach from a ton of people. I did my best to avoid being around his extended family as much as I could because it was exhausting being careful about how I stood, what I ate, what I said etc. it was emotionally draining anyway being up there with the new baby, and my pregnant sister in law… especially when they were comparing baby tips and tricks. It really hit home that I don’t have a 4 month old like I should. I may have gotten a little upset more than once over everything. Then on the way home hubs and I got in a mini disagreement on the drive about him not liking how I acted around his extended fam and not understanding why we couldn’t just share. I tried to explain that it wasn’t them knowing.. it was I didn’t want to answer questions and talk about my feelings with anyone.  He doesn’t get asked these questions. I do. I hate them. I don’t want to talk about it. Even not knowing I’m pregnant I still got “how are you doing” “what actually happened to Max” “will you guys be trying again?” NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS PEOPLE. My rule is ‘unless I offer the information or bring it up first, don’t talk about it. Ugh.

 

On a side note… Hubby and I are becoming official members of our church next week! We are pretty excited and feel the church is a good fit for us:) This baby loves church and just like his brother, is never more active than during the worship music time. 

And Hubs parents sent us and the baby welcome and yay flowers. Look how big he is at 20 weeks!!

And lastly, its been exactly 7 months since we lost our Max. Time had sped by but it still feels like yesterday. Mom and Dad love you little man! You’re an angel. Tell your brother I love when he moves and to be nice to daddy and share some kicks with him!